The sands of time

I have in my two hands some sand from a beach.
I hold it; look at it; feel it, lose it.

I choose to open my fingers, making openings in which
the sand smoothly sifts through, escaping into the air-to freedom.
To freedom it floats until it is caught in another pair of hands; it
waits patiently to float once again.

I look after that sand, with sad eyes
wanting to hold it again.
I desperately grab more sand from the beach
on which i stand.

But it is not the same.
This new sand in my hand
is not
the
same.

The sand that I had let go of is gone now.
It shall never return.
I am not the only one who can attest to this.

I look to this new sand in my hands and I
realize the mistake in which I had made
with the sands of the past.

I hold the sand in my two hands from a beach.
I hold it, look at it, embrace it, keep it.

Healing Tears

Today I cried a lot.

I cried because there was hurt in my heart.

Hurt from stress

But more importantly- hurt from

the people I love.

They did not hurt me purposefully.

I hurt because at that moment, their heart was mine

and that heart was hurting so bad.

That hurt heart

pushed the tears

from my eyes

and with crying out prayer

the Lord led me to the word of God

and slowly that hurt from that heart

began to go away.

But then someone called

and that hurt returned

with a fresh set of tears.

they ask, do you have a cold-

i say no

they ask, why are you sniffing-

i say- i was crying.

they ask, why-

i say don't mind it.

but in the end the truth

comes out-

they concern for me and think that

i am crying out of my own problems.

but no the truth at the end

is that i cry for them

for when they hurt in their heart,

that heart becomes mine.

and it hurts

and so I cry

I cry healing tears.

weak.sauce.

So I was thinking today..

I don't think much.

But I was thinking today.

That a moment of weakness is all it takes

to make your life take a wrong turn

on the path of righteousness.

I'm not walking on the gravel-there's nothing concrete around me anymore.

I lost my shoe in the swamp back there.

I'm pretty sure it was the right way-

I'm also pretty sure I've seen that tree

for the umpteenth time in 10 minutes.

Okay. I'm lost.

At least i'm admitting it.

Fine. I'm lost.

"If you do what is right, will you not be accepted?

But if you do not do what is right,

Sin is crouching at your door and it desires to have you;

but you must master it."

-Genesis 4:7

It's all about the decisions that I make today. Not tomorrow. Or Tomorrow. Or Tomorrow.

We all have moments of weakness.

Do you master it?